Some days are worse than others. Most of the time, I’m surprised that I manage to even post a deal at all. Sometimes blogging takes my mind off of what I’m going through. Other times, it just adds to the anxiety.
It’s therapeutic for me to write about it. So even though you just come around Happy Deal – Happy Day for just the deals, I find it helpful for myself to let my readers into a bit of my personal struggles and what I am facing. That and to explain why I think my blog is pathetic right now and feel so bad that I’m not posting as much as I normally do, and have to let so much slip right now.
I know I’m better than I was last week. I can see it week to week, but not day to day. I’m not better enough though, and I want my life back. Facing this anxiety/depression both now and after my daughter was born was the biggest and hardest battle I have ever had to face.
Some how I’m making it. I know I’m getting better. And I’m NOT giving up. Keep praying for me if you are. I need a faster recovery. I want my blog to bring me joy again, and not just something to “kill time” while I survive my anxious afternoons.
Thanks for the support and comments and e-mails I have received so far. I know I’m not alone, and I’ll take all the support I can get – even from strangers via the internet. 🙂