If you are one of my regular readers, or by chance saw this post here, you may be wondering how I’m doing.
Anyone who has experienced post partum depression/anxiety (or relapse which is what mine is), or any general depression/anxiety in general will understand. For the rest of you, I hope you never do truly understand, because I would never want anyone to go through this.
I think the lowest of my valley is past and I’m slowly climbing back up hill. Others tell me I’m getting better with little improvements. So I know I am, but I still feel SO terrible all of the time, that its hard to celebrate those victories.
My heart breaks because my blog is one of my favorite things to work on, and when depression/anxiety hits, your favorite things become meaningless.
Recovery is happening…but it is SLOW. My husband keeps telling me that my recovery will be like an expotential graph…slow to climb in the beginning, but will quickly shoot up. I’m waiting for the shot upward still!
Until then….I continue to manage sitting in front of my laptop when I can. Those of you who have prayed or will pray, thank you so much. Those of you who have been there and have survived this sort of thing, I’ll gladly take encouragment that I will and am getting better.
Until then…bear with the lack of normal amount of posts. I’m hanging in there….and can’t wait to be my normal self again!!!
Maura, I am continuing to follow your blog. I appreciate all that you do. I am praying for you.
Thinking of you! Best of luck!
Jenny R says
Your blog is still my favorite! So glad to hear you’re making progress, any progress is good. Hope you continue to feel a little better everyday.
Thanks Jenny and everyone else…I’m getting there……
This too shall pass. I love you
I’m happy to hear that you are making progress & will continue to keep you in my prayers. I enjoy following your blog – thanks for all you do!!
Sarah P says
Thinking about you a lot Maura. You are in my prayers. <3
Walter M says
I’ve suffered from depression/anxiety/panic at various points in my life. I think I may have outgrown it but it has taken a couple of decades. Or, whether or not additionally, it may be that I have changed my belief system and diet. I used to drink a fair amount of soft drinks with aspartame. I’ve since read that many think aspartame consumption can adversely affect mood and concentration. I now try to get my five plus servings of fruits and vegetables a day. I also take various supplements including L-tyrosine, melatonin, omega 3 oil, magnesium citrate. I drink a little bit of red wine and I believe that drinking milk now and then helps as a relaxant and as a source of calcium (I try to make sure I intake calcium, magnesium and potassium regularly). My belief system has changed too from once viewing the world as being warm and fuzzy and just and fair. All this, I believe, has helped me. It seems that you are in an environment where many care for you and help you. That is good.
Thanks Walter for the encouragement. I too take many supplements, along with my medication that is helping me. I’d much rather just be taking supplements, but for me right now, medication is needed and I’ve come to a place of accepting that. I am very health conscience, and know that what I put in my body can effect my mood. But unfortunately, my battle with post partum depression/anxiety relapsed, so I know there are hormone issues involved and my body just hasn’t fully recovered yet. But it will!